•Happy and Healthy•

I want to share this part of an article that I read this morning without trying to preach or brag. Most people know that the last 6 years I have battled with my control of alcohol and this past spring I have decided that I needed to find help and be serious about getting it. I have an amazing support group of family and friends that have helped me through this and have seen me continually get well. The biggest this I have struggled with (and I apologize for all the time) the last 4 months is how awkward, uncomfortable, irritable and anxious i get when I’m in situations where there is alcohol present. I have recently realized why this occurs: •I am constantly placed in a category where I am a victim of alcohol • I am constantly told I cannot be around alcohol NO MATTER WHAT • I am told to remember how awful and guilty alcohol made me feel (which ALWAYS makes me feel awful and guilty in the present moment) • If I don’t do X, Y AND Z then I’m not serious about being sober • And the list goes on but you get the point. There are times that living under so much guilt and guidelines that I would wonder if it was even worth it to be sober!! Well I stumbled on this article that had several points that I needed to hear. It made me realize that I do have what it takes to get over the past and let it go. I do have the ability to have fun, be my crazy self, relax, laugh and have a good time with everyone else while being sober. I am NOT a victim that needs to feel guilty about my past or feel restricted about where I go and with who. I need to only be fair to myself, honest with my recovery and do what is best for me and those around me. People still love me and want me to be around and be my best version of ME and I don’t need to take it out on others or put myself down over it. I just want to be happy and healthy and I’m figuring out how to do that in a way that is best for ME! Just wanted to share this section that I really liked!! TheWreckless.com #theWreckless #empowered #encouraged #happy #healthy #4monthsstrong #wildandfree #soberandme 



This weekend I was taught a lesson from being sober first hand. When you go and have a social life and enjoy things that you would have while enjoying your drug of choice- you see everything in a different light. People act different around you. People treat you different. You see them different. Getting use to seeing life in the old perspective of how you use to before you used, is not easy. The challenging part is it throws you into the emotional roller coaster and now you have to actually deal with those emotions instead of ignore them and mask over the chaos going on inside. Instead of grabbing the bottle and “getting over it”, I become an emotional wreck for about an hour because the thing I want to do most- I can’t. 

I’ve heard that the first year of being sober and getting clean is the hardest part because you are dealing with life on life’s terms. It’s not on your terms any longer. You can’t ignore it. You can run and hide. Right now I’m learning that as difficult as it is for me, it’s also difficult for those around me. Not only do I have to deal with my emotional roller coaster but they have to deal with me when I’m embarrassed, lonely, hangry, tired, pissed and annoyed. Most of the time I hate it.  I’m learning more about who I am and wanting others around me to understand what I don’t even understand. It’s a tug-a-war of trial and error and it’s exhausting. I consistently remind myself that the war has to be fought one battle at a time. After that- you figure out what works and what doesn’t. You have to give yourself time and patience to figure out what is good for you. 

You are your own expert. 

Take time to explore, learn and discover who you want to be. 

What to do with reckless people. 

It is impossible to detach yourselves from the people that you love tremendously who are living reckless lives. You can try to help them as much as they need it but they will not stop as long as they are getting away with their life style. They can hurt you and tear your family apart without taking into consideration what the consequences could be. Learning how to detach yourself from that type of character is one of the most difficult things we go through in recovery. I am having a difficult time learning how to detach from people who are toxic and my life. It’s more difficult when you see them constantly because they are your family members or close friend or in your work area or you go to school with them. And learning to detach is not very easy when you have been so attached to somebody for so long. Seen them live a reckless life and put not only themselves but other people in danger, such as their child or spouse or sibling, is very heartbreaking.  How do you truly Love somebody if you sit back and watch them constantly put their lives in danger? How is it that you detach but still try to show them and help them that there is a way out?


Detox from your choice of drug 

And when you’re clean detox from the rest

Detach from those that use 

Detach from those that make you want to abuse 

Separate from the meaningless people 

The ones that don’t understand that you want something more than what they have 

They can’t replace the good in you 

That was lost when you were sick 

They want you to stay in the low life with them 

So they’re not alone

They don’t see your worth

Because they have never known theirs 

Get well for the sake of others 

Get well for the sake of you

You never know when your health is going to be needed 

To save someone else from their use